1 00:00:05,805 --> 00:00:07,140 So let's talk about the 2 00:00:07,140 --> 00:00:08,575 birth of an obsession. 3 00:00:11,678 --> 00:00:12,812 *Sigh* 4 00:00:16,182 --> 00:00:16,816 Sure, 5 00:00:16,816 --> 00:00:18,084 she's scared. 6 00:00:19,019 --> 00:00:21,654 But let's just examine the obsession for now. 7 00:00:22,288 --> 00:00:25,291 And the agent that solidified it. 8 00:00:25,859 --> 00:00:28,862 An arrangement of concrete and steel 9 00:00:29,796 --> 00:00:33,800 a manifestation that spins, yet doesn't move. 10 00:00:36,002 --> 00:00:37,537 A devine pattern. 11 00:00:39,539 --> 00:00:42,542 A world of enchantment. 12 00:00:46,646 --> 00:00:50,216 A world of enchantment. 13 00:00:53,953 --> 00:00:56,423 And not the healthy cry of a newborn, 14 00:00:56,423 --> 00:00:59,426 but an ailing squeal. 15 00:01:00,226 --> 00:01:02,562 Not a vigorous young screech, 16 00:01:02,562 --> 00:01:05,565 but a measly wail. 17 00:01:08,768 --> 00:01:09,369 So let's talk 18 00:01:09,369 --> 00:01:12,372 about the birth of an obsession. 19 00:01:13,139 --> 00:01:16,142 It's not just simple obsession, though. 20 00:01:16,209 --> 00:01:19,946 I'd call it a new form of life, a different way through the door. 21 00:01:21,181 --> 00:01:22,449 It's a new path. 22 00:01:24,217 --> 00:01:27,220 It's for. 23 00:01:27,620 --> 00:01:29,155 So imagine this. 24 00:01:29,856 --> 00:01:31,291 A careless diver 25 00:01:32,525 --> 00:01:34,094 boating at the ports. 26 00:01:37,063 --> 00:01:37,864 Come over here. 27 00:01:37,864 --> 00:01:40,834 I want you to listen to something that's spiraling ramp 28 00:01:41,835 --> 00:01:43,002 right there in front of you. 29 00:01:44,571 --> 00:01:47,974 It's caused a lot of sorrow, and it's caused a lot of heartache too 30 00:01:48,441 --> 00:01:49,375 Its foundations 31 00:01:49,375 --> 00:01:52,378 run for blocks in every direction. 32 00:01:54,314 --> 00:01:55,248 It rotates 33 00:01:55,248 --> 00:01:58,251 endlessly off into space, by implication. 34 00:01:59,185 --> 00:02:01,988 It's a physical construct, becoming a mental object 35 00:02:01,988 --> 00:02:05,825 of such staggering complexity that all she can do in its presence 36 00:02:06,126 --> 00:02:07,994 fall to the couch and weep. 37 00:02:10,063 --> 00:02:11,431 A president edifice 38 00:02:11,431 --> 00:02:15,635 occupying such a large portion of her mind that there's no room left 39 00:02:15,635 --> 00:02:20,673 for processing speech, or food or time or sleep, 40 00:02:20,907 --> 00:02:22,642 or visual information. 41 00:02:24,511 --> 00:02:28,882 A narcotic coil of lime. 42 00:02:32,452 --> 00:02:34,187 I'm talking about obsessive thoughts. 43 00:02:34,187 --> 00:02:37,023 I'm talking about obsessive thoughts regarding an obese rendering. 44 00:02:37,023 --> 00:02:41,461 If I may be allowed to mix the fat and the tallow of a single experience. 45 00:02:42,529 --> 00:02:45,532 Objectively, it's massive, but trivial. 46 00:02:46,032 --> 00:02:48,067 Subjectively, it is staggering. 47 00:02:49,302 --> 00:02:52,305 Its possibilities are endless, but tightly constrained. 48 00:02:52,839 --> 00:02:54,374 It could be anything. 49 00:02:54,374 --> 00:02:56,342 But it isn't just anything. 50 00:02:56,342 --> 00:02:58,611 If that thing. 51 00:03:04,317 --> 00:03:05,218 Let’s witnessed 52 00:03:05,218 --> 00:03:08,221 the aftermath of a late night parking ramp, parking. 53 00:03:09,255 --> 00:03:10,924 Here's some yelling, 54 00:03:10,924 --> 00:03:14,060 but still fit in the car fiddle with dial 55 00:03:15,128 --> 00:03:17,197 to get out. 56 00:03:17,197 --> 00:03:19,866 Look down the ramp, toward the guard booth 57 00:03:19,866 --> 00:03:21,601 and the man looks back. 58 00:03:22,802 --> 00:03:25,271 Kind of familiar, isn't it? 59 00:03:25,271 --> 00:03:27,273 Kind of vile. 60 00:03:27,273 --> 00:03:29,709 Kind of vulge. 61 00:03:29,709 --> 00:03:31,844 Kind of self indulged. 62 00:03:33,313 --> 00:03:36,382 Here's where everything begins to accelerate downward. 63 00:03:37,450 --> 00:03:41,087 She thinks she might know him and she thinks he's cute. 64 00:03:41,120 --> 00:03:45,658 But his head takes a very, very inappropriately long time to swing up 65 00:03:45,658 --> 00:03:49,028 from looking down at the ground up to looking down the ramp at her. 66 00:03:51,097 --> 00:03:54,567 Let me say that again, because your orientation is critical here. 67 00:03:54,701 --> 00:03:57,704 If you want to follow any of this, if you're going to follow the path 68 00:03:58,271 --> 00:03:59,005 from the fist. 69 00:04:01,374 --> 00:04:01,975 His head takes 70 00:04:01,975 --> 00:04:05,245 a very, very inappropriately long time swing up 71 00:04:05,278 --> 00:04:08,481 from looking down at the ramp up to looking down the ramp pattern, 72 00:04:09,082 --> 00:04:12,652 get out and walk up the ramp toward the guard booth as he walks away 73 00:04:16,055 --> 00:04:18,291 It's the camp of the flirtation. 74 00:04:18,291 --> 00:04:20,660 It's slant towards elevation. 75 00:04:20,660 --> 00:04:22,595 It's the blood of the altercation. 76 00:04:23,630 --> 00:04:24,831 *Sighs* 77 00:04:26,733 --> 00:04:27,734 Enough of that 78 00:04:29,135 --> 00:04:33,239 She got gaga over him. 79 00:04:36,843 --> 00:04:37,710 Who does something 80 00:04:37,710 --> 00:04:41,281 bypass articulation and take over your mind from the inside? 81 00:04:42,448 --> 00:04:45,451 Let's walk over to the guard booth and watch it happen. 82 00:04:45,685 --> 00:04:48,688 What happens when you can't stop thinking about something? 83 00:04:49,756 --> 00:04:51,391 Let's keep walking toward the guard booth. 84 00:04:51,391 --> 00:04:52,659 See it happen. 85 00:04:54,961 --> 00:04:57,964 Imagine the same thing over and over again. 86 00:04:58,097 --> 00:04:59,365 Imagine the blood stain. 87 00:04:59,365 --> 00:05:02,835 The rust stain. That lured rust stain 88 00:05:10,143 --> 00:05:11,411 We're almost to the guard booth 89 00:05:11,411 --> 00:05:12,679 now, we’ll watch it happen. 90 00:05:13,980 --> 00:05:16,983 I believe we're going to watch it happen because someone should stop it. 91 00:05:17,684 --> 00:05:19,919 I wish I could stop it, and I could 92 00:05:19,919 --> 00:05:22,922 stop it, but at this point, I wont. 93 00:05:23,256 --> 00:05:25,158 There. There, there. 94 00:05:25,158 --> 00:05:26,459 There. There. 95 00:05:26,459 --> 00:05:27,160 There. 96 00:05:27,160 --> 00:05:27,694 There. 97 00:05:30,630 --> 00:05:31,698 The ramp guard 98 00:05:31,698 --> 00:05:35,335 knocked motionless, a broken man walked to the elevator. 99 00:05:36,169 --> 00:05:37,570 I don't know if he saw her 100 00:05:38,271 --> 00:05:40,273 I don't know if she noticed. 101 00:05:40,273 --> 00:05:42,608 I don't know what they argued about. 102 00:05:42,608 --> 00:05:43,943 I don't know why he hit him. 103 00:05:44,944 --> 00:05:46,279 I don't know if he's breathing. 104 00:05:47,513 --> 00:05:49,048 I don't know why she likes him. 105 00:05:49,982 --> 00:05:51,851 I don't know all the answers, 106 00:05:52,318 --> 00:05:54,520 but let me try to explain by saying 107 00:05:55,555 --> 00:05:58,558 there was in front of her that weird rust stain. 108 00:05:58,958 --> 00:06:01,327 More like a brain than a stain. 109 00:06:01,327 --> 00:06:05,431 More like the swishing brain of her soul than either brain or stain. 110 00:06:07,066 --> 00:06:07,600 She urged 111 00:06:07,600 --> 00:06:11,671 herself on and on the pillow that is too strong. 112 00:06:11,671 --> 00:06:14,674 Visual screens now focused in on her, 113 00:06:15,541 --> 00:06:19,746 Squeezed eyes tightly shut, flooded like the car trunks banging 114 00:06:19,746 --> 00:06:23,449 rapidly open and shut all around her. But there it was in front of her. 115 00:06:23,983 --> 00:06:29,188 That weird rust stain and that terrible, indelible image 116 00:06:29,322 --> 00:06:32,325 staggering under its own oafish weight. 117 00:06:34,727 --> 00:06:36,629 A seven level parking ramp, centrally 118 00:06:36,629 --> 00:06:39,632 designed around a bank of glass guard booth 119 00:06:39,866 --> 00:06:43,936 Nearby the booth, dangerous and anarchic action 120 00:06:43,936 --> 00:06:47,874 spread federally out and angled downward across 121 00:06:47,874 --> 00:06:50,877 and on forward, under the cement floor. 122 00:06:51,477 --> 00:06:56,816 It quickly became clear that night that booth guard wasn't ever coming back soon. 123 00:06:59,352 --> 00:07:02,355 She said something to herself, but she opened the car door. 124 00:07:02,588 --> 00:07:06,225 All directions merged downward along this ramp floor. 125 00:07:06,692 --> 00:07:12,031 They abounded and they, and and, and they, and, and they 126 00:07:13,299 --> 00:07:14,600 they they abounded 127 00:07:14,600 --> 00:07:18,571 uneasily around and around the deafening ramp floor. 128 00:07:19,439 --> 00:07:22,442 She stepped red outside her car. 129 00:07:25,178 --> 00:07:26,813 Even earlier from her own bad 130 00:07:26,813 --> 00:07:28,748 antics she was shaking. 131 00:07:31,350 --> 00:07:33,152 She thought of the familiar blue 132 00:07:33,152 --> 00:07:37,690 happy hours nearby. Of the inner heart sinks and tangled 133 00:07:37,723 --> 00:07:41,394 surrounding her in and out around the office ramp bar. 134 00:07:42,829 --> 00:07:44,897 She'd always hated this place. 135 00:07:44,897 --> 00:07:48,100 That guy, that show, this word 136 00:07:49,702 --> 00:07:54,740 all auditory excitement vanished during the talk show portion of a show. 137 00:07:54,740 --> 00:07:57,877 Left over on the booth guard’s tipped black and white. 138 00:07:58,678 --> 00:08:01,447 Now she just wanted to hurry and get along home 139 00:08:01,447 --> 00:08:04,450 through the gauge distance between her and the blood spot, 140 00:08:04,450 --> 00:08:07,920 several dozen yards away that she just about hadn't seen yet. 141 00:08:09,388 --> 00:08:13,192 She pulled and rolled to the spot. 142 00:08:15,728 --> 00:08:18,130 All eyes glued shut, 143 00:08:18,130 --> 00:08:22,502 then banging up open as she walked down toward the guard booth, 144 00:08:22,502 --> 00:08:25,738 clinchedly vocalizing a self-defense mantra. 145 00:08:28,174 --> 00:08:28,741 Ten years 146 00:08:28,741 --> 00:08:32,144 from the door, she spotted a white entrance about ten spaces 147 00:08:32,144 --> 00:08:35,181 away from the back front entrance of level seven. 148 00:08:35,748 --> 00:08:38,851 Now dangled attractively from up pursuing whisper 149 00:08:42,822 --> 00:08:43,990 She felt frozen 150 00:08:43,990 --> 00:08:47,760 to the spot and observed she wanted to run, 151 00:08:47,760 --> 00:08:52,999 but her movements were codified with fear before it was again for the first time. 152 00:08:53,199 --> 00:08:56,202 That weird rust stain. 153 00:08:59,105 --> 00:09:02,575 Even now, even as we take the first step, 154 00:09:02,742 --> 00:09:05,745 there's something inherent in the physical nature of the ramp 155 00:09:06,746 --> 00:09:08,714 and imaginary tumor. 156 00:09:08,714 --> 00:09:12,218 Making the motion and action and sound and structure 157 00:09:12,451 --> 00:09:15,788 coalesced in her mind as a consolidated thing. 158 00:09:17,456 --> 00:09:20,793 A certain quirk on the cochlea. 159 00:09:23,763 --> 00:09:25,031 In other words, 160 00:09:25,031 --> 00:09:28,801 she isn’t obsessed with the horrible, horrible event that evening, 161 00:09:29,902 --> 00:09:32,905 she isn’t obsessed with actions and mistakes. 162 00:09:34,640 --> 00:09:38,277 She isn’t obsessed with a fist crush or a head pounding down. 163 00:09:40,112 --> 00:09:42,381 She's obsessed with certain physical 164 00:09:42,381 --> 00:09:45,384 and psychic features of a spiraling cement. 165 00:09:51,624 --> 00:09:52,825 Underneath all that cement, 166 00:09:52,825 --> 00:09:56,729 there's a network of steel mesh, you’ve seen them build those things haven’t you? 167 00:09:57,930 --> 00:10:00,933 I have, believe me, you're not missing anything. 168 00:10:03,436 --> 00:10:06,005 But under the steel mesh, there's more cement. 169 00:10:06,005 --> 00:10:07,473 Under all the cement. 170 00:10:07,473 --> 00:10:09,175 Thick foundation anchors. 171 00:10:09,175 --> 00:10:12,278 The whole thing and keep it from drilling into the ground as the cars 172 00:10:12,378 --> 00:10:16,082 Accelerate to the top, pushing the ramp backward with earth 173 00:10:16,182 --> 00:10:17,183 beneath them. 174 00:10:20,086 --> 00:10:20,620 Underneath 175 00:10:20,620 --> 00:10:24,390 all of that is a dense and impenetrable block of poison 176 00:10:24,390 --> 00:10:27,059 that's too dangerous to think about. 177 00:10:27,059 --> 00:10:29,829 But too violent, to be blind to. 178 00:10:29,829 --> 00:10:31,998 Also down there somewhere is a ham sandwich 179 00:10:31,998 --> 00:10:35,001 that one of the workers dropped during construction. 180 00:10:35,101 --> 00:10:36,669 I don't know that for sure. 181 00:10:36,669 --> 00:10:38,638 I'm just saying that it's probably true. 182 00:10:40,473 --> 00:10:42,708 I can't even imagine what that looks look like by now. 183 00:10:49,448 --> 00:10:52,318 She stumbles downward through earth and angles 184 00:10:52,318 --> 00:10:55,321 as the particulars of the building shattered 185 00:10:55,888 --> 00:10:58,891 all around her were loose and rusted building parts 186 00:10:58,958 --> 00:11:01,961 torn at by the hands of the civilized population. 187 00:11:03,362 --> 00:11:06,699 All she wanted was to get inside the elevator where no lights were off 188 00:11:06,699 --> 00:11:09,702 and no seventh level curled on and on 189 00:11:10,603 --> 00:11:14,940 a place where she was out of her car and away from those loose and rusted 190 00:11:14,940 --> 00:11:18,177 building parts to which her right now meaningfully attached. 191 00:11:20,846 --> 00:11:21,681 Some roofing 192 00:11:21,681 --> 00:11:24,984 came locally and tipped over the guards black and white. 193 00:11:24,984 --> 00:11:27,219 Long distance television station. 194 00:11:29,255 --> 00:11:32,258 What about those who around you still suffer 195 00:11:32,558 --> 00:11:35,995 What if he sees you? What’s forming now? 196 00:11:37,296 --> 00:11:38,831 What about the stain? 197 00:11:42,668 --> 00:11:43,903 Shield yourself. 198 00:11:43,903 --> 00:11:44,970 On and on. 199 00:11:44,970 --> 00:11:47,973 But her impalement and his visual squeeze was too 200 00:11:47,973 --> 00:11:49,108 overly strong. 201 00:11:51,043 --> 00:11:53,813 She squeezed shut and everything flooded 202 00:11:53,813 --> 00:11:57,316 The swishing of trunks, trunk banging footsteps 203 00:11:57,316 --> 00:12:02,188 and that terrible, indelible image staggering, soon up against her eyes. 204 00:12:04,690 --> 00:12:06,525 All eyes 205 00:12:06,525 --> 00:12:09,528 flew open as she tried to control her fear. 206 00:12:10,930 --> 00:12:12,765 She spotted a white entrance. 207 00:12:12,765 --> 00:12:14,700 White line, white exit. 208 00:12:14,700 --> 00:12:17,670 White obese booth guard lying there in front of her. 209 00:12:18,537 --> 00:12:21,474 She looked back and saw what was in front of her. 210 00:12:21,474 --> 00:12:22,341 The back. 211 00:12:22,341 --> 00:12:24,276 Front entrance to level six. 212 00:12:26,479 --> 00:12:28,380 Dangled over 213 00:12:28,380 --> 00:12:31,383 and frozen to that spot. 214 00:12:32,051 --> 00:12:35,054 She thought herself down ramp, 215 00:12:35,154 --> 00:12:37,890 trying to wash herself backwards 216 00:12:37,890 --> 00:12:39,959 into that same time frame. 217 00:12:43,095 --> 00:12:44,196 She waxed over 218 00:12:44,196 --> 00:12:47,199 everything surrounding her, thinking, 219 00:12:47,566 --> 00:12:50,569 locking it all into a temporary 220 00:12:51,704 --> 00:12:53,339 melt and grab. 221 00:12:55,708 --> 00:12:57,877 She stumbled forward back down the ramp, 222 00:12:57,877 --> 00:13:00,880 but the sharp building part caught her and showed her the stain. 223 00:13:03,282 --> 00:13:07,620 There it was in front of her that weird level seven rust mark. 224 00:13:08,187 --> 00:13:11,791 Stained more like a brain than a stain and all torn at. 225 00:13:12,758 --> 00:13:14,827 For you it seemed like. 226 00:13:14,827 --> 00:13:17,830 Like it had been torn at for years. 227 00:13:20,900 --> 00:13:23,903 All she wanted now was to get inside level six, 228 00:13:24,470 --> 00:13:27,072 where there was no sharp lighting and no unusual 229 00:13:27,072 --> 00:13:28,374 foot traffic. 230 00:13:30,242 --> 00:13:32,378 Apathy after nine. 231 00:13:32,378 --> 00:13:34,280 She sure got that message. 232 00:13:35,181 --> 00:13:40,619 After nine, the office ramp party nearly ran on in the lounge and level one 233 00:13:41,620 --> 00:13:42,688 After nine, 234 00:13:42,688 --> 00:13:46,525 A makeshift dummy guard booth set up with a nearby sign. 235 00:13:46,692 --> 00:13:49,695 Visit level two to visit level one. 236 00:13:50,162 --> 00:13:52,932 Extreme bans on all ramp levels 237 00:13:52,932 --> 00:13:56,468 now except the fourth and third after nine. 238 00:13:56,902 --> 00:14:01,373 Most ramp booth guards skip drink on level one, swapping 239 00:14:01,574 --> 00:14:04,577 tortious stories of lost vehicle. 240 00:14:06,579 --> 00:14:09,815 She wanted to pull the alarm right away, but was scared 241 00:14:10,382 --> 00:14:13,886 and even not part thinking straight yet 242 00:14:14,186 --> 00:14:18,624 yet yet, some, yet yet, some yet, 243 00:14:18,824 --> 00:14:22,862 Yet somehow her eyes picked out a person coming towards her. 244 00:14:27,933 --> 00:14:30,936 With all due respect to him as a stranger, 245 00:14:31,237 --> 00:14:34,240 her first sight of him staying her eyes open shut, 246 00:14:34,373 --> 00:14:37,943 and in her haste to be consistent with that respect, 247 00:14:37,977 --> 00:14:40,980 she pretended to barely notice any part of him. 248 00:14:41,614 --> 00:14:44,617 All she could do was think of that stain. 249 00:14:46,085 --> 00:14:49,255 Now she had to bend down and focus before the guy disappeared and hid, 250 00:14:49,321 --> 00:14:52,324 and later got right up in front of her. 251 00:14:55,861 --> 00:14:57,162 Don't worry about it. 252 00:14:57,162 --> 00:15:01,834 The young booth guard said in a cart that rolled past her hitting that guy earlier. 253 00:15:02,268 --> 00:15:03,903 Beefed up on other symptoms. 254 00:15:03,903 --> 00:15:06,872 Jabbing at the bar for steady alcohol treatment 255 00:15:08,207 --> 00:15:11,210 Why leave her behind with him? 256 00:15:11,577 --> 00:15:13,445 And what else? 257 00:15:13,445 --> 00:15:16,448 And when 258 00:15:16,615 --> 00:15:19,051 she wondered if he was teasing or just readying 259 00:15:19,051 --> 00:15:22,054 to suddenly appear around the ramp curve. 260 00:15:23,789 --> 00:15:24,690 What to do? 261 00:15:25,524 --> 00:15:26,558 What to do? 262 00:15:27,226 --> 00:15:28,027 Only to stun. 263 00:15:28,027 --> 00:15:31,864 Now at the bar, shaken, not afraid she might burst deeply at the 264 00:15:31,864 --> 00:15:33,132 conversation with the guy. 265 00:15:34,366 --> 00:15:36,835 She might just as easily burst back. 266 00:15:36,835 --> 00:15:38,437 Only one thing was certain. 267 00:15:38,437 --> 00:15:41,373 The trend was set for all things. 268 00:15:41,373 --> 00:15:44,276 Blond hair was back and tan 269 00:15:44,276 --> 00:15:47,680 and in this bar, back in a clever 270 00:15:47,947 --> 00:15:49,915 and criminal quantity. 271 00:15:52,418 --> 00:15:54,753 Behind him, she casually brushed up 272 00:15:54,753 --> 00:15:57,756 subtly, gesturing to increase his attention span. 273 00:15:57,990 --> 00:16:00,793 His hand turned around and she froze. 274 00:16:00,793 --> 00:16:04,596 Her mouth dropped open in the middle of her own spilled sentence 275 00:16:05,531 --> 00:16:10,936 Confused now, she gesturally hinted at him damaging his own kind. 276 00:16:11,236 --> 00:16:13,973 Just back up the ramp. 277 00:16:13,973 --> 00:16:15,975 Fine tuning the resonance. 278 00:16:15,975 --> 00:16:16,709 She said no. 279 00:16:16,709 --> 00:16:18,243 She didn't want to meet up with him later. 280 00:16:20,679 --> 00:16:23,682 Those three smashed states 281 00:16:24,249 --> 00:16:27,953 she had tried so hard to describe and avoid running 282 00:16:27,953 --> 00:16:31,523 over and over again, now became repeatedly present. 283 00:16:34,293 --> 00:16:36,028 He thought she'd been here ages ago. 284 00:16:36,028 --> 00:16:38,364 That's what he told her, and smiled as an introduction. 285 00:16:41,700 --> 00:16:45,738 You're an affectionate at on the arm turn. 286 00:16:46,372 --> 00:16:48,040 You ride with terror. 287 00:16:48,040 --> 00:16:50,909 She had to, but she couldn't. 288 00:16:50,909 --> 00:16:53,912 Here is the story of the bully and the diving board. 289 00:16:54,813 --> 00:16:58,117 You're an affectionate cat 290 00:16:58,484 --> 00:17:01,487 and you ride with trouble. 291 00:17:01,754 --> 00:17:03,422 She had to. 292 00:17:03,422 --> 00:17:05,924 She had to. She couldn't. 293 00:17:05,924 --> 00:17:08,927 She had to hear this story, but she couldn't. 294 00:17:09,028 --> 00:17:11,230 Her heart beating so loftily. 295 00:17:11,230 --> 00:17:14,233 Both could hear it. 296 00:17:14,533 --> 00:17:16,802 In a continually lowering voice. 297 00:17:16,802 --> 00:17:19,805 Let me tell you about the bully and the diving board. 298 00:17:26,445 --> 00:17:27,179 Between her 299 00:17:27,179 --> 00:17:30,783 believing ears was now a stain of terrifying information. 300 00:17:31,283 --> 00:17:34,053 This time, more like a stain than a brain. 301 00:17:34,053 --> 00:17:36,355 More like the chewed brain of a saint. 302 00:17:36,355 --> 00:17:39,892 An organ of thought so recognized universally 303 00:17:40,092 --> 00:17:43,162 to at least as more chewing importable 304 00:17:43,629 --> 00:17:45,931 to end it right here. 305 00:17:45,931 --> 00:17:48,934 Just smelled scalp empty the mesh. 306 00:17:54,773 --> 00:17:56,442 Apathy got her up 307 00:17:56,442 --> 00:17:58,710 and stuck inside that ramp to begin with. 308 00:17:58,710 --> 00:17:59,912 After five. 309 00:17:59,912 --> 00:18:02,548 Got her drunk after seven. 310 00:18:02,548 --> 00:18:04,716 It got her listening after eight. 311 00:18:05,717 --> 00:18:07,586 She set her jacket down at a pretty table 312 00:18:07,586 --> 00:18:10,589 and looked around the leather lounge area. 313 00:18:13,292 --> 00:18:16,261 He was cute and nearby as ever. 314 00:18:17,129 --> 00:18:19,431 Smell the scalp and you'll know what a mess 315 00:18:19,431 --> 00:18:20,833 she was in. 316 00:18:23,168 --> 00:18:26,371 Right away she wanted to call security, but she feared finding 317 00:18:26,371 --> 00:18:29,741 the policeman's mountainous morals inclining its support. 318 00:18:32,678 --> 00:18:33,278 In her haste 319 00:18:33,278 --> 00:18:37,282 to get visibly consistent and casual with the hometown fact. 320 00:18:37,516 --> 00:18:41,420 She barely noticed her gradual move downward to level six. 321 00:18:43,021 --> 00:18:47,826 All she could think of was nature, nature and the weird police, 322 00:18:48,060 --> 00:18:51,230 and how she had to get them back up to level seven right away 323 00:18:52,965 --> 00:18:55,300 before that oblivious stain disappeared 324 00:18:55,300 --> 00:18:58,303 and integrated itself into another thought block. 325 00:19:01,240 --> 00:19:03,909 There it was in front of her that weird rust 326 00:19:03,909 --> 00:19:07,045 stain centralized and wrecked. 327 00:19:07,146 --> 00:19:09,281 Now more like a brain than a stain. 328 00:19:10,649 --> 00:19:12,284 More like the swishing brain 329 00:19:12,284 --> 00:19:15,287 of her soul than either brain or stain. 330 00:19:17,289 --> 00:19:19,591 She wondered, was he disappearing, 331 00:19:19,591 --> 00:19:22,828 ditching her? Some nerve. What? 332 00:19:23,262 --> 00:19:24,530 What to do? 333 00:19:24,530 --> 00:19:27,833 What to do stunned him in the deeper conversation. 334 00:19:29,301 --> 00:19:32,304 She rushed behind him, gesturing at his mouth, 335 00:19:32,371 --> 00:19:35,374 her’s dropped open in the middle of a sentence. 336 00:19:35,707 --> 00:19:38,610 Confused, she hinted embarrassedly 337 00:19:38,610 --> 00:19:41,480 at some damaging spill of automotive fluid 338 00:19:41,480 --> 00:19:43,115 flowing down from the car. 339 00:19:45,150 --> 00:19:46,818 Maybe he could help. 340 00:19:46,818 --> 00:19:48,520 Maybe he could check under the hood. 341 00:19:49,588 --> 00:19:51,323 Turning right red, she met his eyes. 342 00:19:54,026 --> 00:19:56,028 I haven't heard that since high school. 343 00:19:59,598 --> 00:20:01,500 He seemed to beat red 344 00:20:01,500 --> 00:20:06,338 as if too fed up to do any steady jawing barroom treatment. 345 00:20:06,371 --> 00:20:10,442 She'd tried so hard to describe to her friends over and over again. 346 00:20:11,610 --> 00:20:14,079 He thought she'd been here earlier. 347 00:20:14,079 --> 00:20:17,082 She couldn't look down at the blond man then. 348 00:20:17,149 --> 00:20:20,419 her heart was beating so loftily he might not recognize it. 349 00:20:22,554 --> 00:20:23,455 Here at the bar. 350 00:20:23,455 --> 00:20:25,557 She wanted to be recognized. 351 00:20:25,557 --> 00:20:27,392 There at the car. She didn't. 352 00:20:28,360 --> 00:20:30,262 Some call that a plot twist 353 00:20:31,230 --> 00:20:34,233 I'd call it a world of enchantment 354 00:20:35,867 --> 00:20:38,103 a world 355 00:20:39,171 --> 00:20:40,339 of enchantment. 356 00:20:44,643 --> 00:20:47,579 Could she just concentrate on one thing? 357 00:20:47,579 --> 00:20:48,513 His eye 358 00:20:49,548 --> 00:20:50,682 His crime 359 00:20:53,352 --> 00:20:54,820 Penetrating corneas. 360 00:20:54,820 --> 00:20:55,254 Quickly. 361 00:20:55,254 --> 00:20:56,888 erased his nice to meet 362 00:20:56,888 --> 00:21:00,559 yous and encouraged her to get right on and take the life in your hand. 363 00:21:00,559 --> 00:21:03,662 And look on him intently in the, He actually split it. 364 00:21:03,862 --> 00:21:06,865 Take a chance on love. 365 00:21:07,666 --> 00:21:10,769 Hey, it's the new you running off 366 00:21:10,802 --> 00:21:13,772 And every subsequent event slip away together. 367 00:21:18,143 --> 00:21:19,778 She should've saved the stage. 368 00:21:19,778 --> 00:21:22,781 Whisper for another event 369 00:21:24,583 --> 00:21:25,617 With her ahead of me now. 370 00:21:25,617 --> 00:21:26,718 Dead white. 371 00:21:26,718 --> 00:21:29,721 She didn't even know what it meaned yet 372 00:21:29,721 --> 00:21:30,555 Or whos boundaries. 373 00:21:30,555 --> 00:21:31,456 Damn. 374 00:21:35,027 --> 00:21:36,695 More to the point. 375 00:21:36,695 --> 00:21:38,297 She knows that guy. Someone. 376 00:21:43,101 --> 00:21:44,736 He'd be spreading ahead. 377 00:21:44,736 --> 00:21:45,771 More. More like. 378 00:21:45,771 --> 00:21:48,573 More like the like. Like. 379 00:21:48,573 --> 00:21:49,107 More like. 380 00:21:49,107 --> 00:21:52,110 More like a brain than a stain himself. 381 00:21:53,312 --> 00:21:56,581 He’s constricted in her eyes 382 00:21:57,316 --> 00:22:00,319 and incredulous 383 00:22:00,652 --> 00:22:02,821 to her concrete thoughts. 384 00:22:05,991 --> 00:22:08,994 Large, slow 385 00:22:09,328 --> 00:22:10,595 and on the offensive. 386 00:22:11,963 --> 00:22:14,966 They’re like the parents of a good old friend. 387 00:22:18,770 --> 00:22:22,708 Dan can be the same guy you saw one night and all different the next. 388 00:22:23,275 --> 00:22:26,611 Joking you've got a double your sanity and your bank account. 389 00:22:27,179 --> 00:22:30,749 The next thing you know, things pile up in the backyard old cars and stuff. 390 00:22:31,350 --> 00:22:32,584 Refrigerators. 391 00:22:34,986 --> 00:22:36,421 In general, 392 00:22:36,421 --> 00:22:39,391 can’t all believe in the nice guy approach. 393 00:22:39,691 --> 00:22:41,259 Even a broken toilet in the backyard. 394 00:22:41,259 --> 00:22:42,828 It's surprisingly common. 395 00:22:46,365 --> 00:22:47,132 She'll never forget 396 00:22:47,132 --> 00:22:50,469 that face as long as it and she live and that includes 397 00:22:50,469 --> 00:22:54,272 Glassing over it in the large company picnic photos earlier that night. 398 00:22:58,377 --> 00:23:01,380 Now moving to excessively fast down 399 00:23:01,380 --> 00:23:05,717 Ramping forward past the bar, fleeing south by northwest from it, 400 00:23:07,185 --> 00:23:10,188 chasing and rotating up right behind him. 401 00:23:10,922 --> 00:23:13,191 An action her grandfather once described to her 402 00:23:13,191 --> 00:23:16,194 in an intensely slurred delivery. 403 00:23:17,562 --> 00:23:19,965 A 100 year old action, 404 00:23:19,965 --> 00:23:23,368 and as present and heavy as it ever was. 405 00:23:24,469 --> 00:23:27,706 Someone please, call the police 406 00:23:29,574 --> 00:23:32,310 mention the stain. 407 00:23:32,310 --> 00:23:35,847 What about the brain? No. 408 00:23:37,149 --> 00:23:39,217 As far as we know it’s a stain. 409 00:23:39,217 --> 00:23:40,419 Not a brain. 410 00:23:43,922 --> 00:23:45,457 It’s penetrating neurons. 411 00:23:45,457 --> 00:23:46,558 Kept her interested. 412 00:23:46,558 --> 00:23:47,826 Afraid. 413 00:23:47,826 --> 00:23:50,295 Descending. 414 00:23:50,295 --> 00:23:51,630 Take your life in your hands. 415 00:23:51,630 --> 00:23:54,099 The new me. 416 00:23:54,099 --> 00:23:56,802 Do you even know what he is? 417 00:23:56,802 --> 00:23:59,571 It's probably some sort of anatomical with. 418 00:23:59,571 --> 00:24:01,473 That's what they call them nowadays. 419 00:24:01,473 --> 00:24:03,842 Or some sort of dead white boundary. 420 00:24:03,842 --> 00:24:06,511 If you believe in that nice guy theory. 421 00:24:06,511 --> 00:24:09,481 Believe me, she'll never forget that awful photograph. 422 00:24:10,081 --> 00:24:12,951 Not from the current incarnate view she has of it. 423 00:24:14,419 --> 00:24:17,422 A fast moving view of a still photograph 424 00:24:17,889 --> 00:24:20,892 burned through emotion, not exposure. 425 00:24:21,660 --> 00:24:23,762 Developed through sound and structure, 426 00:24:23,762 --> 00:24:25,597 but not light. 427 00:24:27,632 --> 00:24:30,101 Can they really do that? 428 00:24:30,101 --> 00:24:32,838 It's surprising what they can do with a little cement 429 00:24:32,838 --> 00:24:34,940 and wire these days. 430 00:24:37,576 --> 00:24:40,879 She wasn't making up the story, but she could only describe 431 00:24:40,879 --> 00:24:43,982 the abnormality of her situation and rotating three. 432 00:24:45,383 --> 00:24:47,419 Moon 433 00:24:47,419 --> 00:24:49,688 Carnival rides, 434 00:24:49,688 --> 00:24:51,456 pawn shop, mall. 435 00:24:56,962 --> 00:25:00,966 Moon, Carnival rides. 436 00:25:00,966 --> 00:25:01,700 Pawn shop. 437 00:25:01,700 --> 00:25:04,703 Mall. 438 00:25:04,769 --> 00:25:07,772 The thing to do is act normal. 439 00:25:07,873 --> 00:25:09,774 The thing to do is act normal. 440 00:25:09,774 --> 00:25:11,643 Don't let them see the spill. 441 00:25:11,643 --> 00:25:14,646 Don't mention the stain. 442 00:25:17,415 --> 00:25:18,183 More evening 443 00:25:18,183 --> 00:25:21,486 Customers up and took seats near a small field area 444 00:25:21,486 --> 00:25:24,489 by the level five guard, 445 00:25:24,589 --> 00:25:27,592 his eyes stilled upon their drinks. 446 00:25:28,560 --> 00:25:30,729 No. Sure, there's no fighting. 447 00:25:30,729 --> 00:25:33,765 Wherever you work and whatever you do, it's part of the job. 448 00:25:34,900 --> 00:25:37,903 Just act naturally slip out and call the police 449 00:25:38,570 --> 00:25:41,573 For God's sake, don't go out for drinks after work. 450 00:25:42,507 --> 00:25:45,510 That's what the downside turns up. 451 00:25:46,411 --> 00:25:48,847 Like flipping a pancake 452 00:25:48,847 --> 00:25:51,850 or turning over at the harp. 453 00:25:52,217 --> 00:25:55,220 That's where the downside turns up. 454 00:25:57,989 --> 00:25:59,190 There was in front of her 455 00:25:59,190 --> 00:26:02,761 that rust stain dripping and wrecked. 456 00:26:02,761 --> 00:26:05,764 Now more like a train than a stain. 457 00:26:05,997 --> 00:26:09,167 More like the amber train for thought than any other train 458 00:26:09,167 --> 00:26:12,170 or stain. 459 00:26:13,138 --> 00:26:14,973 Down from the bar on level five. 460 00:26:14,973 --> 00:26:17,742 She urged the most essential thing 461 00:26:17,742 --> 00:26:20,745 to get out the door again and ever again, 462 00:26:21,179 --> 00:26:24,182 to fend for his own terrible place, then a next sentence 463 00:26:25,550 --> 00:26:28,386 rammed back down. 464 00:26:28,386 --> 00:26:33,191 Eyes spilled on her with a staggered stance tickets 465 00:26:33,291 --> 00:26:36,294 for drastic promotions from. 466 00:26:40,165 --> 00:26:41,533 Remember 467 00:26:41,533 --> 00:26:44,269 Stay absolutely calm. 468 00:26:44,269 --> 00:26:47,272 He knows you 469 00:26:47,606 --> 00:26:48,740 He knows you 470 00:26:50,442 --> 00:26:53,211 He knows you 471 00:26:54,179 --> 00:26:54,746 He knows 472 00:26:54,746 --> 00:26:56,881 you are desperate. 473 00:26:58,216 --> 00:26:59,284 But desperation was 474 00:26:59,284 --> 00:27:02,287 the craziest thing she ever had an excess of. 475 00:27:02,520 --> 00:27:05,924 How was she supposed to keep from panicking for any minute 476 00:27:06,091 --> 00:27:09,961 to march the oh so so familiar cross ballroom movement. 477 00:27:10,495 --> 00:27:11,429 What was she supposed to do then? 478 00:27:11,429 --> 00:27:12,731 Just roll downhill? 479 00:27:15,467 --> 00:27:18,069 As reflected in less than a minute of composure, 480 00:27:18,069 --> 00:27:21,072 spilling half the soda she had just poured on herself. 481 00:27:21,172 --> 00:27:23,708 She raised an eyebrow and feigned for a napkin to wait 482 00:27:23,708 --> 00:27:26,711 for this originating point, 483 00:27:27,012 --> 00:27:32,417 and continued conversing with the same smooth disgusting, sophisticated 484 00:27:32,417 --> 00:27:33,451 little yuck yuck 485 00:27:35,620 --> 00:27:38,523 Give them a talking normal to, she told herself. 486 00:27:38,523 --> 00:27:40,759 Whatever you do, you can't recognize them. 487 00:27:40,759 --> 00:27:44,129 In fact, her emotional bond had 488 00:27:44,129 --> 00:27:47,265 by this point been absorbed into the garage. 489 00:27:47,265 --> 00:27:47,999 Critters. 490 00:27:50,735 --> 00:27:52,370 So much for the birth of an obsession. 491 00:27:56,241 --> 00:27:59,010 Up to her neck, with its current view of level five, 492 00:27:59,010 --> 00:28:03,114 with all his reactions directed downward and outward toward her. 493 00:28:03,314 --> 00:28:07,385 She lied to him on the topic of let's not OD on each other tonight, 494 00:28:07,585 --> 00:28:08,219 okay? 495 00:28:11,956 --> 00:28:14,592 Describe and spill the detail. 496 00:28:14,592 --> 00:28:17,362 I'm sure he didn't recognize me. 497 00:28:17,362 --> 00:28:21,466 If he did, he'd be giving out on and upon her 498 00:28:22,267 --> 00:28:24,636 opening up that small spill. 499 00:28:24,636 --> 00:28:29,874 Wherever you are and whoever you do it to act natural. 500 00:28:30,909 --> 00:28:31,109 Then. 501 00:28:31,109 --> 00:28:33,878 Then slip out and call the police. 502 00:28:33,878 --> 00:28:35,213 Mention his stain. 503 00:28:35,213 --> 00:28:38,817 Run back down and keep her eyes still on him. 504 00:28:39,851 --> 00:28:42,420 He intrigued her with the same slight. 505 00:28:42,420 --> 00:28:43,521 *Mouth click* 506 00:28:44,122 --> 00:28:47,892 Sound that had dramatically pursued and order 507 00:28:47,992 --> 00:28:50,995 since she rounded level four. 508 00:28:51,763 --> 00:28:54,766 Whatever you do, you can't recognize him. 509 00:29:00,038 --> 00:29:02,474 A drink big enough to relax. 510 00:29:02,474 --> 00:29:05,844 She set down a dripping glass and got a little shorter than she remembered, 511 00:29:07,512 --> 00:29:10,515 a 6’ 3” wad of hair touched his top. 512 00:29:10,682 --> 00:29:13,118 Handsome other found him to be 513 00:29:13,118 --> 00:29:16,354 He has a strong square nine arching 514 00:29:16,421 --> 00:29:20,792 eyes all made up and well, no one is happy. 515 00:29:20,959 --> 00:29:23,962 Rotating atmosphere, 516 00:29:23,995 --> 00:29:26,431 physically fit and well trained 517 00:29:26,431 --> 00:29:29,467 She reached the guard booth on level seven 518 00:29:29,467 --> 00:29:30,702 It all fits together. 519 00:29:30,702 --> 00:29:33,705 What can be prepared 520 00:29:34,339 --> 00:29:38,843 for this circumstance, more stained 521 00:29:39,410 --> 00:29:40,712 Well trained 522 00:29:40,712 --> 00:29:43,815 The vestiges of her carefully controlled light 523 00:29:43,815 --> 00:29:47,252 danced wildly about the room a booth guard 524 00:29:47,252 --> 00:29:51,356 Linger carefully at a nearby table, running and tilted forward. 525 00:29:52,724 --> 00:29:56,895 Based do you livecaround here and other prying questions of his 526 00:29:57,095 --> 00:30:02,667 her variability, rocking back and forth slightly on his heel from one to another. 527 00:30:03,067 --> 00:30:06,104 Her barbed little spell had spurred him on 528 00:30:07,739 --> 00:30:10,241 What office were you in? 529 00:30:10,241 --> 00:30:12,811 Do you have a brother? 530 00:30:12,811 --> 00:30:13,678 Maybe to help. 531 00:30:15,680 --> 00:30:17,382 What about the brain? 532 00:30:18,983 --> 00:30:21,452 What about the car trunk being rapidly open? 533 00:30:21,452 --> 00:30:23,021 Shut on. 534 00:30:26,257 --> 00:30:28,293 That quick meeting at level five 535 00:30:28,293 --> 00:30:31,930 started to seem a distant and less dangerous possibility. 536 00:30:32,330 --> 00:30:34,199 Until his next terrifying. 537 00:30:34,199 --> 00:30:36,134 Let go question. 538 00:30:37,569 --> 00:30:39,370 She got a little sharper than she remembered. 539 00:30:39,370 --> 00:30:40,338 Possible. 540 00:30:40,338 --> 00:30:43,341 All the drinking near the guard booth, now found him unpleasant. 541 00:30:44,075 --> 00:30:47,312 He looked lit from the inside in a bad way, 542 00:30:48,079 --> 00:30:51,082 yet all there still found the face handsome. 543 00:30:52,951 --> 00:30:54,118 You're remember? 544 00:30:59,057 --> 00:31:00,058 In reference somewhere 545 00:31:00,058 --> 00:31:03,995 and decisively, or with the ramp lights dimmed at his fingers. 546 00:31:04,429 --> 00:31:06,531 He stared at her. 547 00:31:06,531 --> 00:31:09,133 Could this be it? 548 00:31:09,133 --> 00:31:11,703 Encoded himself actually to her 549 00:31:11,703 --> 00:31:14,672 as they continued drinking down ramp. 550 00:31:15,340 --> 00:31:19,010 Great and independent idea 551 00:31:19,410 --> 00:31:22,380 suddenly showered them. 552 00:31:23,615 --> 00:31:25,683 She thought he had a horrible smile. 553 00:31:25,683 --> 00:31:28,686 As in too much teeth 554 00:31:29,520 --> 00:31:30,989 She thought she needed 555 00:31:30,989 --> 00:31:34,158 to get out of the ramp bar and go someplace with a little tilt. 556 00:31:36,661 --> 00:31:39,631 She snapped, trying to look cool 557 00:31:41,432 --> 00:31:44,502 She said they may have met each other somewhere else. 558 00:31:45,637 --> 00:31:48,072 She called urgently, 559 00:31:48,072 --> 00:31:52,110 facing forward down the ramp after him immediately. 560 00:31:52,744 --> 00:31:55,747 A year ago, at the company 561 00:31:55,847 --> 00:31:58,850 annual dreadful attempt to drain her independent, 562 00:31:59,150 --> 00:32:02,787 she was alone, violently trembling in her throat. 563 00:32:02,787 --> 00:32:04,956 With that continued rushing. 564 00:32:04,956 --> 00:32:08,593 He was maybe there, or maybe in the front 565 00:32:08,593 --> 00:32:11,696 back doorway to level three or something. 566 00:32:11,963 --> 00:32:14,465 Had just occurred to her, 567 00:32:14,465 --> 00:32:16,501 there is trouble here. 568 00:32:16,501 --> 00:32:20,505 They are attacking at this party, but it's not funny. 569 00:32:21,072 --> 00:32:24,275 It's scaring me like an angel of light. 570 00:32:24,976 --> 00:32:27,812 I'll try to keep him here 571 00:32:27,812 --> 00:32:30,581 until the third wave of the. 572 00:32:30,581 --> 00:32:30,915 Okay. 573 00:32:30,915 --> 00:32:33,918 Down to level four. 574 00:32:34,986 --> 00:32:37,355 So there it was in front of her. 575 00:32:37,355 --> 00:32:41,192 That weird stain dripping and mold now. 576 00:32:41,192 --> 00:32:43,728 More looking drain than a stain. 577 00:32:45,063 --> 00:32:47,632 More like the tropical drain of her sweat 578 00:32:47,632 --> 00:32:50,635 than either drain or stain. 579 00:32:51,669 --> 00:32:52,570 She’ll recognize 580 00:32:52,570 --> 00:32:57,041 his car he's charging at the bar on fourth level with the level 581 00:32:57,041 --> 00:33:00,244 five and a few unsuspecting booth guards 582 00:33:00,244 --> 00:33:01,879 from level six. 583 00:33:03,614 --> 00:33:06,451 What about the level seven booth guard? 584 00:33:07,318 --> 00:33:09,320 Or what about the weird rust stain 585 00:33:09,320 --> 00:33:12,123 and that terrible, indelible image 586 00:33:12,123 --> 00:33:15,093 to bright to look at too loud to listen to, 587 00:33:15,927 --> 00:33:18,930 to dangerous to think about. 588 00:33:21,399 --> 00:33:22,233 Relax. 589 00:33:22,233 --> 00:33:25,336 And coming over to join her at the distraught bar 590 00:33:25,370 --> 00:33:28,673 place where she was trying desperately to keep up with the locals, 591 00:33:29,340 --> 00:33:32,243 chatting herself into some kind of ironic, 592 00:33:32,243 --> 00:33:35,246 haphazard interpersonal connection. 593 00:33:35,646 --> 00:33:38,649 She'd managed frantically to stay subtle. 594 00:33:41,219 --> 00:33:41,753 Harder 595 00:33:41,753 --> 00:33:46,290 and harder it remained to remain, to make small talk act much longer 596 00:33:47,125 --> 00:33:50,495 yet affordable, smile and attuned to little voice. 597 00:33:52,730 --> 00:33:53,898 Start another word. 598 00:33:53,898 --> 00:33:57,935 She may have a realization coming about what a stupid thing she's done 599 00:33:57,935 --> 00:34:02,140 being friendly to this guy promised her *mocking gibberish* 600 00:34:02,673 --> 00:34:05,276 She backed into a nearby violence office room 601 00:34:05,276 --> 00:34:07,145 just off the ramp. 602 00:34:09,213 --> 00:34:10,915 In the doorway of the office. 603 00:34:10,915 --> 00:34:13,051 Something had just occurred to her. 604 00:34:13,051 --> 00:34:15,486 She could barely speak 605 00:34:15,486 --> 00:34:17,522 for the time. 606 00:34:17,522 --> 00:34:20,491 She felt herself shaken by... 607 00:34:22,293 --> 00:34:25,296 Didn't she drive west on just a minute ago? 608 00:34:29,033 --> 00:34:34,172 She’d be here? circling around here, flying after lane one. 609 00:34:34,172 --> 00:34:35,473 She should say no. 610 00:34:35,473 --> 00:34:38,042 No, but he's been here. 611 00:34:38,042 --> 00:34:40,344 Makes this a one on one. 612 00:34:40,344 --> 00:34:42,480 A booth gaurd from level three, he told her. 613 00:34:42,480 --> 00:34:43,748 It's been shocking here. 614 00:34:43,748 --> 00:34:45,650 Round the clock this week. 615 00:34:45,650 --> 00:34:47,718 It was that good. 616 00:34:49,153 --> 00:34:51,856 They slipped comical drink 617 00:34:51,856 --> 00:34:54,859 via plastic incubation 618 00:34:54,926 --> 00:34:57,195 between him and his cocktail. 619 00:34:57,195 --> 00:35:00,731 The straw and this drink appeared to have precipitated 620 00:35:01,232 --> 00:35:03,768 all that could be precipitated that evening. 621 00:35:06,204 --> 00:35:07,805 It was that good? 622 00:35:07,805 --> 00:35:10,108 No. No 623 00:35:10,108 --> 00:35:12,810 good, no 624 00:35:12,810 --> 00:35:14,212 good. 625 00:35:14,212 --> 00:35:16,948 Good. 626 00:35:16,948 --> 00:35:19,951 It's the fact that. 627 00:35:20,585 --> 00:35:23,588 It was that good. 628 00:35:24,422 --> 00:35:25,890 There it was in front of her. 629 00:35:25,890 --> 00:35:28,893 That weird rust stain mold. 630 00:35:28,960 --> 00:35:32,296 humid now more liquid grain than a stain. 631 00:35:33,331 --> 00:35:35,633 More with the grain on the grain of her voice 632 00:35:35,633 --> 00:35:38,636 than either grain or stain. 633 00:35:41,739 --> 00:35:44,342 The level three bartender began to hyperventilate 634 00:35:44,342 --> 00:35:48,045 through a series of and large stories about human attention, 635 00:35:48,412 --> 00:35:51,682 emerging art, and expressed his bank 636 00:35:51,682 --> 00:35:54,685 with noise tube. 637 00:35:55,553 --> 00:35:57,221 She felt that the possible 638 00:35:57,221 --> 00:36:00,224 future of hidden violence getting his story. 639 00:36:00,224 --> 00:36:01,859 Her throat tightened. 640 00:36:01,859 --> 00:36:05,530 She couldn't believe this guy was there, right in front of her, 641 00:36:06,030 --> 00:36:09,300 laughing with the bartender on level three. 642 00:36:09,901 --> 00:36:14,672 After tipping over the bar tender on level seven. 643 00:36:14,839 --> 00:36:18,242 She was afraid of his deep breath, 644 00:36:18,643 --> 00:36:22,380 and now, from inside that deep breath 645 00:36:22,413 --> 00:36:23,948 cocktail arena, 646 00:36:23,948 --> 00:36:26,951 she smelled his expressionless smile 647 00:36:27,485 --> 00:36:29,854 he really loved life stories. 648 00:36:29,854 --> 00:36:32,857 Apparently, from a number he told 649 00:36:33,925 --> 00:36:35,193 But hey, 650 00:36:35,193 --> 00:36:38,162 he wanted to hear more meowing from her. 651 00:36:38,262 --> 00:36:39,330 They’ve cornered each other now 652 00:36:39,330 --> 00:36:42,833 he thought she should just come over and say hello and run after a minute. 653 00:36:43,034 --> 00:36:46,037 Voted pursuit down to level two. 654 00:36:46,470 --> 00:36:47,672 Hello. Nice to meet you. 655 00:36:47,672 --> 00:36:49,740 Would you like to come with them? 656 00:36:49,740 --> 00:36:52,743 Think hard about the guard booth. 657 00:36:53,911 --> 00:36:56,881 Just think of the stain and go home. 658 00:36:58,082 --> 00:37:01,052 He over the shouldered his coat. 659 00:37:01,252 --> 00:37:03,287 Come on. 660 00:37:03,287 --> 00:37:05,823 She felt that violent, 661 00:37:05,823 --> 00:37:08,793 sweating off in her own deep breath. 662 00:37:10,127 --> 00:37:12,797 The physical system is rigged in reverse now. 663 00:37:12,797 --> 00:37:14,432 Come over and say hello. 664 00:37:14,432 --> 00:37:17,401 But don't mention the stain. 665 00:37:18,836 --> 00:37:19,637 Overdosing 666 00:37:19,637 --> 00:37:22,907 on her time with him, she had no idea what to say. 667 00:37:22,907 --> 00:37:24,408 Back to any of his ideas. 668 00:37:25,810 --> 00:37:27,245 Turning on heels, 669 00:37:27,245 --> 00:37:29,513 she aligned herself toward the door. 670 00:37:30,248 --> 00:37:33,251 She gasped, starting away from him. 671 00:37:35,586 --> 00:37:38,389 She couldn't bear the blow out of that terrible mouth cork 672 00:37:38,389 --> 00:37:41,392 and yet still, without a comment to lose. 673 00:37:44,729 --> 00:37:46,297 There it was in front of her 674 00:37:46,297 --> 00:37:49,634 that was rust stained, humid and sorrowful. 675 00:37:50,034 --> 00:37:53,037 Now more like rain than a stain. 676 00:37:53,070 --> 00:37:55,773 More like a great rain of tears than either 677 00:37:55,773 --> 00:37:57,108 Rain or stain. 678 00:38:08,686 --> 00:38:10,688 Went down on level two. 679 00:38:10,688 --> 00:38:12,957 She decided to drive down there, 680 00:38:12,957 --> 00:38:15,960 enticing and the best part of the party. 681 00:38:16,327 --> 00:38:19,230 She hoped level two would be filled with more people around. 682 00:38:19,230 --> 00:38:20,865 A pretty thought. 683 00:38:20,865 --> 00:38:23,100 If not, she circled back down 684 00:38:23,100 --> 00:38:24,402 up to level seven, 685 00:38:25,703 --> 00:38:28,706 shining at the end of the aisle. 686 00:38:29,840 --> 00:38:32,843 Someone would strap. 687 00:38:33,210 --> 00:38:36,213 A clean, but odd man. 688 00:38:36,213 --> 00:38:38,282 Semi handsome 689 00:38:38,282 --> 00:38:41,285 for anything in character. 690 00:38:43,888 --> 00:38:45,356 Blanched and anxious, 691 00:38:45,356 --> 00:38:48,359 she unbuckled her seat belt and took the man in hand. 692 00:38:49,260 --> 00:38:52,463 He stopped as if he were trying to block her from spreading too 693 00:38:52,463 --> 00:38:53,898 thinly around the driveway, 694 00:38:55,733 --> 00:38:57,601 through the dim lit garage. 695 00:38:57,601 --> 00:38:59,970 She barely could make out her horn. 696 00:38:59,970 --> 00:39:03,040 He was looking for her, waiting for the booth guard up there, 697 00:39:03,341 --> 00:39:06,310 rapidly rotating around a central point of injury. 698 00:39:07,011 --> 00:39:11,649 The rust stained underside of the nearby car quickly became too dangerous 699 00:39:11,649 --> 00:39:16,087 to think about the events of the evening, quickly becoming too complex to sort. 700 00:39:17,121 --> 00:39:18,122 He's cute. 701 00:39:18,122 --> 00:39:20,491 He's too dangerous to think about tonight. 702 00:39:20,491 --> 00:39:22,927 He’s too violent to be brought into 703 00:39:22,927 --> 00:39:25,096 Too bright to look at. 704 00:39:25,096 --> 00:39:27,031 He's too loud to listen to. 705 00:39:27,031 --> 00:39:29,233 He's too dangerous to think about it. 706 00:39:29,233 --> 00:39:31,435 He’s too gruesome to fall for. 707 00:39:31,435 --> 00:39:33,838 Vicious, he’s too bright to look at. 708 00:39:33,838 --> 00:39:36,841 Too loud to listen to, too dangerous to think about. 709 00:39:39,510 --> 00:39:40,378 You know what I mean? 710 00:39:45,082 --> 00:39:45,816 He’s too dangerous 711 00:39:45,816 --> 00:39:48,386 to think about too arhythmic dance to 712 00:39:49,353 --> 00:39:50,121 You know what I mean? 713 00:39:51,155 --> 00:39:52,123 He’s vicious and average. 714 00:39:52,123 --> 00:39:53,657 He's cute and realistic. 715 00:39:54,925 --> 00:39:55,860 You know what I mean? 716 00:39:57,762 --> 00:40:00,865 There's the deafening automotive roar. 717 00:40:01,866 --> 00:40:03,167 Flooded her ears 718 00:40:06,437 --> 00:40:07,605 The thing to do. 719 00:40:07,605 --> 00:40:10,074 Maybe be calm 720 00:40:10,074 --> 00:40:12,109 There are other possibilities, though. 721 00:40:12,109 --> 00:40:14,311 Shout for safety is one 722 00:40:14,311 --> 00:40:17,314 But what if he's probably just panicking for a second? 723 00:40:17,348 --> 00:40:18,816 Waving money. 724 00:40:21,051 --> 00:40:24,054 But at first, terror told her otherwise. 725 00:40:24,688 --> 00:40:28,692 What an idiot she's been to not implicate the guy first. 726 00:40:29,360 --> 00:40:32,396 Related the face, the beat red face 727 00:40:32,997 --> 00:40:35,733 the instant blond giveaway 728 00:40:35,733 --> 00:40:38,736 when she had the chance down at the bar. 729 00:40:41,639 --> 00:40:44,008 She put her horn 730 00:40:44,008 --> 00:40:46,544 with all her might, as he opened to that 731 00:40:47,778 --> 00:40:50,047 menacing look on its face. 732 00:40:53,617 --> 00:40:56,620 She struck out his hand in a harsh voice 733 00:40:57,855 --> 00:41:00,291 he continued toward her, 734 00:41:00,291 --> 00:41:04,929 his green eyes filling with important 735 00:41:06,530 --> 00:41:08,299 warm, 736 00:41:08,299 --> 00:41:10,701 angry 737 00:41:10,701 --> 00:41:13,704 automotive fluid. 738 00:41:14,505 --> 00:41:17,274 Pretty stupid, isn't it? 739 00:41:17,274 --> 00:41:19,643 Pretty sad. 740 00:41:19,643 --> 00:41:21,579 Well, very much on the draw these days. 741 00:41:23,614 --> 00:41:24,882 Is that what she was? 742 00:41:24,882 --> 00:41:27,885 Is that what she was? pushing on the draw. 743 00:41:30,421 --> 00:41:32,122 Well, yeah. 744 00:41:32,122 --> 00:41:35,125 So you've never been here in your life. 745 00:41:35,693 --> 00:41:37,394 She was having difficulty breathing. 746 00:41:37,394 --> 00:41:40,631 The thought in and out of her ears was growing louder and louder. 747 00:41:41,432 --> 00:41:44,568 More like an approaching train than a thought or brain. 748 00:41:45,503 --> 00:41:49,139 She tried hard to get out of her car so hard she thought she might faint. 749 00:41:49,907 --> 00:41:51,742 Now she knew what that meant. 750 00:41:53,310 --> 00:41:56,280 An aura of her type dispatched to him. 751 00:41:56,380 --> 00:41:58,849 She acted like he was the scum of the earth. 752 00:41:58,849 --> 00:42:00,384 Maybe not even that good. 753 00:42:03,020 --> 00:42:03,988 At the very start he said 754 00:42:03,988 --> 00:42:06,857 Hello. Then she started reacting briefly. Only. 755 00:42:06,857 --> 00:42:09,059 She touched his hair and betrayed him. 756 00:42:09,059 --> 00:42:12,296 Spoke in a nice ugly voice, crouching down now. 757 00:42:12,296 --> 00:42:15,933 He will merge into a piece of the garage floor, 758 00:42:16,967 --> 00:42:18,636 twisting and 759 00:42:18,636 --> 00:42:21,639 symmetrical with wire and terror. 760 00:42:23,874 --> 00:42:26,043 he inched closer to her with both hands. 761 00:42:26,043 --> 00:42:28,279 All that protected her was a little alcohol 762 00:42:28,279 --> 00:42:31,282 and an unbelievably fragile sense of doubt. 763 00:42:31,715 --> 00:42:34,718 At this point, though, mainly the alcohol, 764 00:42:34,885 --> 00:42:37,488 she had no idea what to say back then, 765 00:42:37,488 --> 00:42:41,125 turning on his heels, he aligned himself in front of the back. 766 00:42:41,158 --> 00:42:44,161 Front door to level six, or three or something. 767 00:42:48,532 --> 00:42:51,535 She gasped, starting after turning south. 768 00:42:52,636 --> 00:42:57,608 She couldn't bear the blow out of that garage again by the level two payphone. 769 00:42:57,775 --> 00:43:00,778 At that local rate, there wasn't a single minute 770 00:43:00,844 --> 00:43:03,847 for cent to lose. 771 00:43:04,615 --> 00:43:05,516 There it was in front of her 772 00:43:05,516 --> 00:43:09,153 that weird rust stain, sorrowful and great. 773 00:43:09,253 --> 00:43:12,289 Now, more like pain than a stain. 774 00:43:12,723 --> 00:43:14,825 More like physical pain of memory. 775 00:43:14,825 --> 00:43:16,360 That either pain or stain. 776 00:43:18,662 --> 00:43:18,896 Right. 777 00:43:18,896 --> 00:43:21,031 On the first level, there were more people. 778 00:43:21,031 --> 00:43:23,901 People shining at the end, people anxious. 779 00:43:23,901 --> 00:43:25,703 She unbuckled her seatbelt 780 00:43:25,703 --> 00:43:28,706 and took developing processes in hand. 781 00:43:30,140 --> 00:43:31,642 Just then, 782 00:43:31,642 --> 00:43:34,144 a red rust stain marked the side of the car, 783 00:43:34,144 --> 00:43:37,681 the kind of red that doctors say can be too dangerous to think about, 784 00:43:39,049 --> 00:43:40,718 but a redness that's too violent 785 00:43:40,718 --> 00:43:42,353 to be blind to. 786 00:43:45,656 --> 00:43:49,593 Let’s witness the embarkation and continued complication 787 00:43:49,994 --> 00:43:53,764 of the mind of a woman who sees the immediate aftermath of a parking ramp, 788 00:43:53,764 --> 00:43:57,301 that’s being attacked in a light that, in hindsight, 789 00:43:58,068 --> 00:43:59,336 too bright to look at. 790 00:44:01,338 --> 00:44:02,673 She struck a harsh voice. 791 00:44:02,673 --> 00:44:05,643 She had to get out of this unhealthy mixture somehow. 792 00:44:05,843 --> 00:44:08,846 She exhaled desperately at her surroundings. 793 00:44:10,714 --> 00:44:13,951 That night, his eyes might fix upon hers 794 00:44:15,085 --> 00:44:16,253 Understand? 795 00:44:16,954 --> 00:44:18,455 No I don't. 796 00:44:18,455 --> 00:44:19,890 I only remember a stain 797 00:44:22,793 --> 00:44:24,261 Away for a second. 798 00:44:24,261 --> 00:44:26,063 Well, now you know 799 00:44:26,063 --> 00:44:27,164 you love the girl one. 800 00:44:27,164 --> 00:44:29,333 But it had to evaporate. 801 00:44:29,333 --> 00:44:30,701 It just had to. 802 00:44:34,071 --> 00:44:35,773 She tissued into the horn. 803 00:44:35,773 --> 00:44:39,610 And that loud report issued endlessly soaking around 804 00:44:39,610 --> 00:44:42,613 and into the cavernous garage floor 805 00:44:43,480 --> 00:44:46,550 Mild, knife cracking glass, she gunned her 806 00:44:46,550 --> 00:44:48,919 auto focus off to the side. 807 00:44:51,689 --> 00:44:53,824 She wasn't even sure what move to make. 808 00:44:53,824 --> 00:44:56,694 She just knew it had to happen fast. 809 00:44:56,694 --> 00:44:58,128 Her center of... 810 00:44:58,128 --> 00:45:02,733 is hit the gas pipe, choking out for lost sense of stain. 811 00:45:04,702 --> 00:45:06,837 You know what that means? 812 00:45:06,837 --> 00:45:08,572 Again, I don't. 813 00:45:08,572 --> 00:45:12,242 I only remember a stain. A weird rust stain. 814 00:45:16,246 --> 00:45:19,249 At night he's awake and his eyes fixed upon hers. 815 00:45:19,249 --> 00:45:20,718 like suction cups. 816 00:45:20,718 --> 00:45:22,820 Understand? 817 00:45:22,820 --> 00:45:25,823 Understand that she was implicated by that cold voice. 818 00:45:26,156 --> 00:45:27,424 You know I love the girl one. 819 00:45:27,424 --> 00:45:29,126 But she screamed off to the side. 820 00:45:30,394 --> 00:45:31,895 So, just this one time. 821 00:45:31,895 --> 00:45:33,030 Okay. 822 00:45:35,399 --> 00:45:39,269 I hovered ear to ear with that maniacal look inside. 823 00:45:39,703 --> 00:45:41,472 Get over it 824 00:45:41,472 --> 00:45:46,009 frequently and roughly, her knees were trembling, her feet 825 00:45:46,310 --> 00:45:50,948 Consisted only of turning her toes too frightened not to obey. 826 00:45:51,815 --> 00:45:54,852 The next thing she knew, he was an arm on her back, 827 00:45:54,852 --> 00:45:58,222 and thoughtfully pinned it to just this side of consciousness. 828 00:46:00,624 --> 00:46:03,627 Maybe a sharp pain, maybe a smile. 829 00:46:03,827 --> 00:46:06,830 Maybe a booth guard slumped forward. 830 00:46:07,598 --> 00:46:10,501 She felt herself curve balling into mortal danger 831 00:46:10,501 --> 00:46:13,670 down the ramp and twisted her face right down under. 832 00:46:14,404 --> 00:46:17,941 And now her mouth organ dropped and temporarily words. 833 00:46:17,941 --> 00:46:21,245 But no sound came out with fear. 834 00:46:21,278 --> 00:46:24,281 She inched her mouth forward and shaped. 835 00:46:24,548 --> 00:46:27,551 I see a tire on the garage floor and it's melting. 836 00:46:29,253 --> 00:46:30,320 What about the rust stain? 837 00:46:31,555 --> 00:46:33,090 It's not a stain. 838 00:46:33,090 --> 00:46:36,093 It's more like a brain than a stain. 839 00:46:37,161 --> 00:46:39,730 Can't you please through the coincidence. 840 00:46:39,730 --> 00:46:42,733 Entrance and exit. 841 00:46:42,900 --> 00:46:44,935 I don't see an exit. 842 00:46:44,935 --> 00:46:47,938 I see the mouth of a wall. 843 00:46:53,243 --> 00:46:56,013 In the midst of the creation of an obsession. 844 00:46:56,013 --> 00:46:59,082 But at the same time, let's have a little sympathy for the woman. 845 00:47:01,318 --> 00:47:04,087 Sure, she's scared, but let's focus on the weird, 846 00:47:04,087 --> 00:47:05,622 weird rust stain. 847 00:47:08,392 --> 00:47:09,493 An image projecting 848 00:47:09,493 --> 00:47:12,496 its foreign ideas onto you like a movie screen. 849 00:47:12,830 --> 00:47:14,698 A red glob, 850 00:47:15,699 --> 00:47:18,702 an image that vores into you. 851 00:47:19,002 --> 00:47:22,005 An image more like a brain than a stain. 852 00:47:25,442 --> 00:47:26,910 Let's look at an agent of thought. 853 00:47:26,910 --> 00:47:31,315 Turning a parking map to a mental object of such staggering complexity 854 00:47:31,448 --> 00:47:33,150 that all you can do in it’s presence 855 00:47:33,150 --> 00:47:36,186 Is be still and pray it doesn't make a move toward you. 856 00:47:37,921 --> 00:47:38,455 An image 857 00:47:38,455 --> 00:47:41,525 leaving no room for processing sound or smell 858 00:47:42,092 --> 00:47:43,861 or expelling toxins. 859 00:47:46,363 --> 00:47:47,598 Starting over with 860 00:47:48,332 --> 00:47:51,034 something in that rust stain looked like a brain. 861 00:47:51,034 --> 00:47:53,337 It was shaped just like a brain. 862 00:47:53,337 --> 00:47:55,472 It talked like a brain. 863 00:47:55,472 --> 00:47:57,774 Just thought like a brain. 864 00:47:57,774 --> 00:47:59,076 And you know what they say. 865 00:47:59,076 --> 00:48:02,079 If it talks like a brain and thinks like a brain, 866 00:48:02,512 --> 00:48:04,681 it's more like a brain than a stain. 867 00:48:08,719 --> 00:48:09,620 What creates 868 00:48:09,620 --> 00:48:12,623 an object of such staggering complexity? 869 00:48:14,124 --> 00:48:16,560 I think it happened. 870 00:48:16,560 --> 00:48:18,795 When you combine 871 00:48:18,795 --> 00:48:21,031 a crush 872 00:48:21,031 --> 00:48:22,699 and an attack. 873 00:48:25,802 --> 00:48:28,772 Can't someone turn that darn TV off? 874 00:48:29,273 --> 00:48:30,908 She tightened her grip on plan. 875 00:48:30,908 --> 00:48:33,543 She dropped into a crouched position. 876 00:48:33,543 --> 00:48:34,478 From this position, 877 00:48:34,478 --> 00:48:37,481 She stealthily seized him in contrary motion. 878 00:48:37,514 --> 00:48:41,885 Inching forward, big bit by baby little bit, coming up from behind 879 00:48:43,053 --> 00:48:44,655 as he spun around the booth 880 00:48:44,655 --> 00:48:45,989 guard got the head treatment. 881 00:48:47,724 --> 00:48:50,727 But with the head treatment, I mean eventually. 882 00:48:51,094 --> 00:48:53,363 But that's not the same. 883 00:48:53,363 --> 00:48:55,265 No, no it isn't. 884 00:48:55,265 --> 00:48:58,001 No, it's not the same thing at all. 885 00:48:58,001 --> 00:48:59,970 How then? He reeled 886 00:48:59,970 --> 00:49:01,171 From the impact. 887 00:49:01,171 --> 00:49:05,642 Fell down on his knees and fleshy head, cutting a jagged wound with his. 888 00:49:06,009 --> 00:49:10,180 It's slick of an ear slumped over that cement segment 889 00:49:10,647 --> 00:49:14,551 a huge red bump rose just off the top of his head, 890 00:49:14,985 --> 00:49:17,988 he moaned at the slump. 891 00:49:19,890 --> 00:49:23,093 She originated, in her eyes, a registered terror 892 00:49:23,593 --> 00:49:26,863 flashing at the horrible emphasis she had just backed herself 893 00:49:26,863 --> 00:49:29,866 into. Where is Dan going? 894 00:49:30,434 --> 00:49:34,104 This was the spot he was bleeding and a thick scent 895 00:49:34,104 --> 00:49:37,107 adoration through her veins. 896 00:49:37,674 --> 00:49:41,178 Finally at the bar she gassed Dan with a steaming get out of here! 897 00:49:41,178 --> 00:49:43,547 Vocal tone, get away from him! 898 00:49:43,547 --> 00:49:46,350 Just just just don't just 899 00:49:47,751 --> 00:49:50,387 just just just don't fall. 900 00:49:50,387 --> 00:49:52,789 Just don’t roll down hill. 901 00:49:52,789 --> 00:49:54,257 One armed supported her. 902 00:49:55,225 --> 00:49:56,994 She tried to hurry. 903 00:49:56,994 --> 00:49:59,529 She heard his chilling voice, stepped icily 904 00:49:59,529 --> 00:50:01,098 into her consciousness. 905 00:50:02,933 --> 00:50:06,269 And flirted around her before in tight pirouettes 906 00:50:06,336 --> 00:50:09,339 drop these events into the cement forever together. 907 00:50:09,840 --> 00:50:12,142 When she hadn't obliged, he crushed into 908 00:50:12,142 --> 00:50:15,145 his icy high wire act? 909 00:50:15,178 --> 00:50:17,381 From her position in the driver's seat. 910 00:50:17,381 --> 00:50:19,950 She sees the side of his head. 911 00:50:19,950 --> 00:50:22,953 She shook gently. 912 00:50:23,553 --> 00:50:26,123 She had to get discharged from the garage, 913 00:50:26,123 --> 00:50:29,793 but distantly, her terrific party raging on level three. 914 00:50:30,193 --> 00:50:32,929 She pressed her hand to her forehead. 915 00:50:32,929 --> 00:50:34,231 What should I do? 916 00:50:34,231 --> 00:50:35,465 Stay at the scene. 917 00:50:35,465 --> 00:50:36,900 Back into the party. 918 00:50:40,604 --> 00:50:41,671 Dramatic events 919 00:50:41,671 --> 00:50:44,775 pinch the way across the terror mirrored in her face, 920 00:50:45,208 --> 00:50:49,112 including her lost of chewing sight she had never seen. 921 00:50:50,514 --> 00:50:53,717 She felt her knees buckle as she focused on the face. 922 00:50:53,750 --> 00:50:56,753 But the most frightening thing 923 00:50:56,953 --> 00:50:59,956 was the deadly generalized calm on his face. 924 00:51:00,490 --> 00:51:03,693 She gripped it so tight the sequence ran past 925 00:51:03,727 --> 00:51:07,531 her at an angle approximating the slope of the pavement. 926 00:51:09,433 --> 00:51:11,201 She hit. 927 00:51:11,201 --> 00:51:13,570 She flashed. 928 00:51:13,570 --> 00:51:16,573 She revamped. 929 00:51:16,873 --> 00:51:18,675 She hit. 930 00:51:18,675 --> 00:51:20,710 She flashed. 931 00:51:20,710 --> 00:51:23,713 She revamped. 932 00:51:25,015 --> 00:51:27,451 A beautiful tent falls during 933 00:51:27,451 --> 00:51:28,251 Roaming. 934 00:51:31,488 --> 00:51:32,589 But then it got dark. 935 00:51:32,589 --> 00:51:35,592 And the gate dropped shut. 936 00:51:38,962 --> 00:51:41,498 Stares about ten yards from her. 937 00:51:41,498 --> 00:51:42,933 She might make it to the door. 938 00:51:42,933 --> 00:51:45,268 She might make it to the dance floor. 939 00:51:45,268 --> 00:51:47,671 If she could cry and move very fast. 940 00:51:47,671 --> 00:51:51,241 The air between the two of them would decompress like a song, 941 00:51:52,709 --> 00:51:53,777 she whispered. 942 00:51:53,777 --> 00:51:56,780 She urged to confuse them. 943 00:51:57,114 --> 00:52:00,117 She gassed out the door to street level. 944 00:52:02,018 --> 00:52:03,220 There it was, in front of her, 945 00:52:03,220 --> 00:52:07,124 at street level, with that weird rust stain 946 00:52:08,325 --> 00:52:10,227 Great and centralized. 947 00:52:10,227 --> 00:52:13,864 Now more like an open flame than a stain. 948 00:52:14,731 --> 00:52:18,001 Now more like the great moving flame of current life 949 00:52:18,535 --> 00:52:21,538 than either flame or stain. 950 00:52:22,772 --> 00:52:23,240 Again, 951 00:52:23,240 --> 00:52:26,243 the drama so tightly the sequence ran backwards. 952 00:52:26,610 --> 00:52:29,913 Start to the door, wound his hand, arm back. 953 00:52:30,347 --> 00:52:33,416 Give her a push inch toward her again. 954 00:52:33,617 --> 00:52:36,620 His head. Look up at him. Park the car. 955 00:52:36,753 --> 00:52:38,021 Take the ticket. 956 00:52:38,021 --> 00:52:39,523 Enter the ramp. 957 00:52:41,825 --> 00:52:42,893 She looks away. 958 00:52:42,893 --> 00:52:45,829 She closes her eyes. She thinks that her thoughts. 959 00:52:45,829 --> 00:52:47,164 She reads mail 960 00:52:47,164 --> 00:52:48,665 She calls friends. 961 00:52:48,665 --> 00:52:51,668 She does her job. She calls family. 962 00:52:51,668 --> 00:52:52,736 She runs. 963 00:52:52,736 --> 00:52:54,271 She meets friends. 964 00:52:54,271 --> 00:52:57,274 And nothing ever changes. 965 00:52:57,474 --> 00:52:58,208 Never. 966 00:53:00,510 --> 00:53:02,012 Nothing changes. 967 00:53:02,012 --> 00:53:04,014 Never. 968 00:53:04,014 --> 00:53:06,183 Nothing ever changes. 969 00:53:06,883 --> 00:53:09,119 Nothing. Never. 970 00:53:09,119 --> 00:53:10,854 It never changes. 971 00:53:13,523 --> 00:53:15,625 She looks by and she looks away. 972 00:53:15,625 --> 00:53:18,261 She closes her eyes with a sense. 973 00:53:18,261 --> 00:53:19,763 For a feeling. She has. 974 00:53:21,531 --> 00:53:23,567 I'd call it a theory because it can be tested 975 00:53:23,567 --> 00:53:26,570 against empirical evidence and it holds up. 976 00:53:28,171 --> 00:53:30,640 I caught a theory he makes predictions. 977 00:53:30,640 --> 00:53:33,643 Predictions like nothing ever changes. 978 00:53:34,211 --> 00:53:35,078 Never. 979 00:53:36,613 --> 00:53:38,782 She thinks other thought she reads the mail. 980 00:53:38,782 --> 00:53:41,785 Nothing ever, ever changes. 981 00:53:43,253 --> 00:53:46,189 Nothing changes it rotates. 982 00:53:46,189 --> 00:53:48,592 That's not the same as change. 983 00:53:48,592 --> 00:53:51,595 The main difference being that rotation is real. 984 00:53:51,628 --> 00:53:54,664 Change is not. Change drags you along. 985 00:53:54,831 --> 00:53:57,834 Rotation leaves you behind. 986 00:53:58,201 --> 00:54:00,804 Change lures you to trends and fads. 987 00:54:00,804 --> 00:54:04,140 Rotation decapitates. 988 00:54:04,140 --> 00:54:07,110 If not this time around, then the next. 989 00:54:07,711 --> 00:54:08,845 She calls friends. 990 00:54:08,845 --> 00:54:10,380 She does a job. 991 00:54:10,380 --> 00:54:14,150 She has lunch, she meets friends, and nothing ever changes. 992 00:54:15,051 --> 00:54:15,986 Never. 993 00:54:18,822 --> 00:54:22,292 It's just always and increasingly, always. 994 00:54:22,292 --> 00:54:25,161 That weird rust stain. 995 00:54:25,161 --> 00:54:26,663 Auguring into the earth. 996 00:54:26,663 --> 00:54:30,867 That was in front of her, rotating that she drives in 997 00:54:32,502 --> 00:54:34,638 that weird parking ramp 998 00:54:34,638 --> 00:54:37,807 and like the random people rotating around that ramp. 999 00:54:38,708 --> 00:54:40,910 Like a hamster in a wheel, 1000 00:54:40,910 --> 00:54:45,181 like a ball on a conveyor belt, like a careless dentist 1001 00:54:45,181 --> 00:54:48,752 rotating around an already removed abscess for no reason. 1002 00:54:50,153 --> 00:54:53,156 Like a bar that's too crowded to go to. 1003 00:54:53,957 --> 00:54:56,893 She reviews the incident again 1004 00:54:56,893 --> 00:54:57,894 and again. 1005 00:55:02,999 --> 00:55:04,701 Like any number of analogies 1006 00:55:04,701 --> 00:55:07,470 that only impoverish us all with their presence. 1007 00:55:07,470 --> 00:55:11,107 It coils relentlessly underneath her as she drives up 1008 00:55:11,274 --> 00:55:15,512 and in under each level each morning, returning to the originating 1009 00:55:15,512 --> 00:55:19,382 stained point where she begins the downward spiral of her day, 1010 00:55:20,216 --> 00:55:23,987 whirling and braiding herself through eight gyrating hours 1011 00:55:23,987 --> 00:55:25,655 of recollection. 1012 00:55:28,525 --> 00:55:30,427 Of recollection. 1013 00:55:30,427 --> 00:55:33,363 To amorphous, to shape, 1014 00:55:33,363 --> 00:55:35,332 but too sticky to release. 1015 00:55:37,834 --> 00:55:40,270 Like any number of analogy 1016 00:55:40,270 --> 00:55:43,039 that only impoverish us all with their presence. 1017 00:55:44,341 --> 00:55:47,110 The ramp curls willfully under her 1018 00:55:47,110 --> 00:55:50,113 as she returns to that red stained point, 1019 00:55:50,780 --> 00:55:53,783 and begins her downward spiral through the day. 1020 00:55:56,853 --> 00:55:59,823 Did you know that everything tends to drift to the right? 1021 00:55:59,989 --> 00:56:01,124 Well it’s a true story. 1022 00:56:05,462 --> 00:56:06,963 That stain 1023 00:56:06,963 --> 00:56:11,401 that booth guard knocked motion with an arm behind his back, 1024 00:56:11,401 --> 00:56:14,404 holding himself just to the side of unconsciousness. 1025 00:56:17,140 --> 00:56:20,143 She tuned her alarm with that terrible, 1026 00:56:20,977 --> 00:56:22,412 horning song. 1027 00:56:24,280 --> 00:56:27,283 That TV show scream. 1028 00:56:29,252 --> 00:56:32,255 Not the healthy cry of a newborn, 1029 00:56:32,922 --> 00:56:35,925 but a pathological yell, 1030 00:56:36,092 --> 00:56:39,062 a declining howl. 1031 00:56:40,196 --> 00:56:42,265 A strange 1032 00:56:42,265 --> 00:56:45,268 neonatal cry. 1033 00:56:49,472 --> 00:56:51,341 There it was in front of her. 1034 00:56:55,445 --> 00:56:57,414 I used to have all the self-confidence in the world.